Have a mojito, Paulo Coelho

[Blood Red Blood - Voxtrot]

"All my life I thought of love as some voluntary enslavement. Well, that's a lie: freedom only exists when love is present. The person who gives him or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves most wholeheartedly.

And the person who loves wholeheartedly feels free.

That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it." - Excerpt from Paulo Coelho's Eleven Minutes

Beautiful, this passage struck such a strong cord with me. School for this first sem promises to be damn slack. Because of my exemption, I only have 3 modules (: which translates to school on three days - 9 hrs altogether. Glam.

The 5th time

For the 5th time in my life, I am able to say, TOMORROW is the first day of school. I'm just contented to have something to do really. I'm not going in with any expectations, just the hope that I meet some normal people. Wish me luck (:

Soulmates

For the super indie kids of the 80’s
Who love their friends and their cartoons
Even the retarded ones, which star
Yellow sponges with shorts that live in the sea

For the mindless hours of chatting and dancing
In the middle of the streets, late at night
Till the early morning – when the sun says hello
And we’re all finally in our own beds

For the sweet, sweet love that makes me feel warm
When I’m a lost little girl with a polka dot dress
And ballet flats on my feet, singing to Deathcab
In my voice that often gets the notes wrong

For touching my toes is not my only ability
I can hug a million times and laugh for hours
Till we get face cramps and give in to the tiredness
And we say goodnight with light hearts and heavy feet

For the girl that I love – Jules, I'll miss you

I wanted to write a letter for you(even penned this down for you), but every time I tried to get started on one, I'd get all weepy and I'd stop.

I've been teary eyed all week, every time I hear The Bravery or some Deathcab song or basically any other sad song that reminded me that you were leaving. I was teary eyed at the airport and even when I got home and started looking at our pictures.

I know you'll be fine and you'll do great and I'm so proud and happy for you. But don't you dare let our friendship dissolve ok, because I love you so much and I never want to lose you. Just the thought of you not being next to me for the next 5 months is enough for me to start crying again, I don't care how stingy I sound, I'm waiting very patiently for Christmas.

Like everyone else, I'm good at acting as though I'm strong and I it didn't really settle in till I couldn't see your back anymore, but Ju, srsly, you have no idea how much you've affected my life in the past 3 years and I am so thankful to have a friend like you.

LOVE KNOWS NO BOUNDRIES, I'll always be here - just an email/sms/phone call/love letter away.

Undergraduate

Guess what guys, I was on SIM's waiting list for the Marketing course, so even though they sent me a rejection letter on Friday (making me a very sad little girl) I GOT A CALL TODAY AND GOT OFFERED A SEAT! I START SCHOOL ON MONDAY.

OMG, I have direction again. I <3 you guys for being so concerned, thanks for all your support. (: (: (:

SO FREAKING HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!

Disconnected

I am disconnected,
I am incomplete,
I am no-thingness
personified
because I am clueless
and no one makes sense anymore.

Fuck fuck fuck, I'm all emo and shit. I want a little angel to come down and tell me what to do with my life.

Are you that somebody?

[Flight 180 - Bishop Allen]

Yesterday night was fantastic, the music was great, the company was fabulous (as usual) I had good amounts of alcohol, was SUPER DUPER HAPPY when I got home - and then my mood did a complete 180 because I did not get into SIM. And suddenly here I am again, back to what I was in February - aimless, clueless and feeling very alone.

Thanks Jules, I don't know why but my immediate reaction to being teary eyed in the middle of the morning is to call you - love you sweets.

This is the problem, right here people, I need a job, so if you have any recommendations for events, PR, and Radio - you know whose way to send them.

How disconnected I can feel on the ground
It's like I'm shining all alone
And I don't wanna be so
before I go to bed tonight
I'll signal up to the passing flight
Hit the lights

If you feel like dancing, dance with me...

I need you so much closer

[Golden Dawn - Art in Manila]

Have u ever seen the world in grey? Like there is no longer any colour to it, the monotony of everyday gets to you and suddenly, there is only one shade left. Not even shades of grey, just one solid, boring, mellow colour - grey.

I was chatting with an old friend the other day, and its amazing how after all these years, we still can connect on such a level. We're so alike in so many ways, it just got me thinking about how we deal with things so similarly too.

We bottle, we don't let anyone see what's going on inside. Then one day a bottle breaks and suddenly perceptions change, people start thinking differently, but I don't really want that. I'm safe and secure with my bottles. My friend just got a few bottles broken, I hope no one comes along and touches mine.

Now I'm beginning to wonder if anyone really understands what I'm typing.

On another depressing note, MY FREAKING HANDPHONE CANNOT STORE MUSSSSSSEEEEEEK. :( So, I'm left with a freaking DISCMAN. Can you believe that. With all the technology going on in the world today, I (a child of the 80's and a supposed technosexual) am carrying around a DISCMAN which I got when I was like 12 or smthg. It's actually got a surprising-ly good sound, and I'm making my own CD's to carry around so it's not too bad. But it's just so depressing.

Mellow Wednesday:
Don't take your love away - Vast
Headlights - Dispatch
Insomnia - Electric President
Losing My Religion - R.E.M
May Angels Lead You In - Jimmy Eat World
Pink Bullets - The Shins
We Might Fall - Ryan Star
Candleburn - Dishwalla
Mad World - Gary Jules
See A Better Day - Graham Coxon (I'm gg to play this song at my wedding)
Brighter then Sunshine - Aqualung
Tiny Vessels - Deathcab
Transatlanticism - Deathcab
Golden Dawn - Art In Manila
Shine On - Jet
Maybe Tomorrow - Stereophonics
Your Ex-lover is dead - Stars

I can't wait for FRIIIIIIIDAY (:

The call beckons and I find no way to avoid it,
So I answer.

Jules: Yeah she inherited those from her mom, lucky girl ay.
Jocelyn: Yes, it was me! I was there.

Irina Lazareanu

[You're out - Dead Disco]

Irina Irina Irina, how can anyone be so beautiful?

With short hair

Or with long hair

With side swept hair

Or with full bangs

Even with the whole Chun-Li thing going on.

I especially love her ECU's, sigh, such perfection.

This is like the first time I've ever dedicated an entire blog post to someone I don't even know. It's just that everytime I look at runway pics on Style.com, she stands out so much from all the other seemingly 2-D models. Her face is just like phwoar. I love, I love.

My liver is DYIIIIIIING people!! I have been out 4 nights in a row, drinking 4 nights in a row and I am quite amazed at how I haven't collapsed into a heap and died. Perhaps its cause I'm only 20, that's what my family seems to think. But I'm srsly quite tired. I'm going to take a break from all this till the 20th - Juju's last Home night. I need to detox, detox, detox. Singapore's nightlife is really pretty darn fantastic, AND out of the 4 nights that I've been out, 3 nights have been spent with many fabulous gay people, they're just soooooooo much fun (: I haven't gotten drunk but I've been buzzed all the 4 nights. I cannot believe that people can do this every week - I already feel as though I'm going to die young.

Good times people, FREAKING GOOD TIMES.

And for some reason I can't type anything into the title bar, so this is a title-less entry.

Love you more

[Temptation greets you like a naughty friend - Arctic Monkeys]

So I'm back from Bkk, it was great (: Although I wore a lampshade on my head and went down to reception to ask how much it costs, vomited in the middle of the BKK airport because of MAJOR motion sickness nausea and woke up to Wei Ming kneeing me in the buttocks - I HAD A GREAT TIME because I had fab friends with me, I managed to shop ALOT because everything there is so cheap AND I kind of invented a new word.

Main Entry: Cheap·a·lo
Etymology: Bangkok, Thailand
1: a cheap and low priced item, often for sale
Example: This dress is so cheapalo, I shall buy it.

Since words that we use or rather words that Jules blogs about (remember unglam, fugly, funglam, etc, etc) often becomes part of everyone's language soon after, everyone should learn this word, cause it's totally glam.

I also managed to visit my aunty in BKK and her adorable little baby girl (:

That's my youngest cousin ya'll who is 19 YEARS younger then me, OMG I'm old.

Sometimes I feel so much older then I physically am, like I've been here sooooo long and many people have told me that I have an old soul - which is why no one ever guesses that I'm 20. Does anyone else ever feel that way, or is it just me?