the benefits of boredom

So here's how I've been spening my job-less school-less altogether point-less days. I've been watching a shitload of movies, reading books and downloading new music.

Over the last few days, I've watched American History X, The Last Kiss, Lilja 4-ever, American Beauty, Jesus Camp, Mysterious Skin, Pulp Fiction (Again), The Holiday.. in full. I have this thing about stopping movies after 10 mins if they bore me. So the movies that I've watched are all good.

The Last Kiss and The Holiday were pleasantly surpising, cause they were really good romantic comedies, I usually detest the cheesiness of chick-flicks, but these were actually good(because they weren't cheesy).

Pulp Fiction and American History X are like on my Favourite movies of all time list. Pulp Fiction is still Phwoar! and American History X was fucking good - I love Edward Norton!

Mysterious Skin, Lilja 4-ever(Russian Flick) and American Beauty just remind me of how sick/ sad/ twisted yet beautiful our little world is. I love these little gems that show you the lives of people you've never met, it's one of those movies that leave you with an overall sense of well being (cause you realise how lucky you are) while fucking ur mind over.

Jesus Camp was fantastic, its a docu-movie and its disturbing.

Books books books!! I've finally gotten down to finishing Neil Gaiman's American Gods - Good shit man. He is my favourite author (: fantastic imagery, makes me want to paint a world on a giant canvas and then leap through and become part of it.

The book that I'm reading now is fantastic and very very interesting, its got the cutest title too, The hollow chocolate bunnies of the apocalypse, I love these books that are so far off from real life. So whimsical and fun. Next up I have P.S. I love you to read, I heard its a really sweet book.

As for music, Mika (the guy who sang Grace Kelly) has got a great album full of super fun ditties.. haha that really is the most fitting word for his music. Makes for an instant happy day.
Fall Out Boy's Infinity on High is also really good. Modest Mouse's new album is also pretty good, the song The World at Large is beautiful.

Altogether very fruitful I must say, alongside spending many many hours with my lovely chees of charbs & co. (: and applying for many many jobs - although none of them have gotten back to me. I'm just enjoying this freedom, becuase I'm sure that I'm going to miss it way too much once its gone.

I don't think that there's anything worse than being ordinary. - American Beauty

I <3 tarot

[Too Young to Fight It - Young Love]

Ok, so you all know I do readings BUT I don't think any of you have had the priviledge of meeting all my decks. (:

My oldest, and the one that I always use (in public), is Osho. (Osho Zen Tarot)

I've had him for 2 years and he's reliable, very very kind and peaceful. Like a nice buddhist monk, I like monks (: they're all very peaceful.

Next up, is Giles. (Gilded Tarot)

I've had Giles for a year, and I haven't brought him out because I don't feel like I've mastered him yet. One must always appear cool, calm and collected when doing readings. He's more straight laced and quiet. Kind of like a mentorish, professorish elderly man, thus the name Giles - like that older guy in Buffy.

Last but not least, is my newest deck, that I have not yet named. (Revelations Deck)

Woah... damn bloody pretty!! After looking for this deck FOR A FEW MONTHS, I FOUND IT TODAY!! I'm gg to have a great time with this baby, I can feel it. Being the youngest, it's going to get alot of attention, tender loving care is key to building a relationship with a deck.

So this is my little Tarot deck collection, I'm damn nice to my cards ok, I'm not this nice to anything else that I own. I like giving my decks names and such, cause they really are different. I'm sure all of you have your own possessions that you feel deserve names and have personalities, like cameras or pillows or whatever, well for me, its my decks. (:

They are all beautiful and amazingly layered with hidden meanings which provide many many hours of learning. Learning more about them means learning more about myself and that's great.

One piece of advice for all you people out there, if you don't believe in it, that's fine, just don't get a reading, cause if I can tell who believes in my readings and who doesn't then any other tarot reader can too. I don't like not being taken seriously and the readings don't come out as clear or as accurate, so don't waste the reader's time and your money.

If you're doing it just for fun, then keep an open mind and see what happens. I was rather skeptical too, at first, but the more I trusted it, the better the readings and the more sense it made. Now, I don't think I could live without it, it's helped me through many many confusing and emo moments in the past 2 years.

alala

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADELINA CHONG MOOOON TENG!

We always clubxzxz on ur bday man, and last night was super.. (: Had shitloads of fun, took hell lots of peektures and danced the night away. You know I love ya, cheers!

Went for my first interview today, it was ok, though I don't think I'll get the job. It's alright, there are other jobs out there.

I'M BACK ON FRIENDSTER!! So add me alright. I have succumbed to being the kpo that I am and of course I also like being able to disturb friends when I'm bored by writing them very usless testimonials.

Jules: Yes we need to get you laid. Even our dear saliva string has had sex man. That is a disaster. Oh and you were damn handsome la, don't bangla babe me ok.
Noo: Hahahaha, go set up a page la. I'm way too lazy. (:
Karen: Yessssss its time!! hahaha, you should totally post a few pics on your blog. We are such good friends. (:

I dont want to grow old

My grandma reads the obituary pages everyday to see if any of her friends, or people who she knew when she was younger, have died.

The idea of being old and all the people whom I once knew falling dead like flies all around me is fucking scary.

On a much brighter note, I'm going to show you a new side of an old friend.

But before that, dinner at Jules's house last night was fantastic. Thanks! Juju.

Now, we all know who Jules is - yeah la, the damn loud one with her own two hills, but not many know this side of her. Her kung fu fighting, Chow Yun Fat side.

Meet the VERY HANDSOME Juliana Stacy Lau Ji Peng!!

I am so proud to have such a hot, hot friend. (: Enjoy.

oh dear, what do we do now?

I hate waiting, waiting for things to happen, waiting for results to come in, waiting for job interview, waiting for (a hopefully successfull) uni seat, waiting for people to change... I'm impatient and easily bored by nature.

So I usually don't just sit and wait, I usually DO SOMETHING to make things go faster, even if its just by an incy wincy little bit. But what if I don't have that option? What if I can't make things go my way anymore. I think I'm running out on luck people. What if the last twenty years of my life are the best I'll ever have and it all goes downhill from here?

Well there's only one way to find out, we'll have to ...ccbknnbbq... wait and see.

See this is how my mind starts working when I stay at home for too long, doing practically nothing!! I can't wait to see ma fwens tomorrow, belly welly eggciting (:

i've got a bright idea

My little cousin - who is 12 going on 13 - is getting a little chinese girl called Gina chocolates for Valentine's Day. And I will be staying at home studying for Masina. Isn't life just grand?

charbee & co

Once upon a time, there lived four girls who were otherwise known as the Jewels. In the day, they were just normal students - but once school was out (this depended very much on their projects) they became superheroes.

There was Roooobie, Amerthyst, Emerald & Diamond (ME!!)

As you can see they were full of mystery, BUT they found themselves lost without a leader. So they turned to the only man up to the task of handling these super heroes, none other then the super macho Charbee!!

Yes, looks can be deceiving, that's why Charlie (of Charlie's Angels) talks to the girls through a box. But I digress.

SOOOOO, there finally was a superhero group in town and they were getting all the villians with the help of their uhmm.. great leader! But!! As all great heroes have an arch nemesis, Charbee & his Jewels met theirs soon enough!! The evil villians...

The very evil and cunning Vagina Vulture and Penis Possum!! Look at their evil grins and scary faces.. sends shivers up and down my spine.

So that's how Charbee & Co came to be. (And that's how I hope we'll stay)

Many battles were fought between the villians and the Jewels. But after awhile everyone decided that the battles weren't our biggest problem.. no, our biggest problem was getting Jules laid before her cooch turned dusty (: (Jules I love you)

So we focused our attention to that, and then we gave up on that too. I think she'll get laid soon enough. Because now that we are graduating (I KNOW ITS DAMN SAD) I think we all look like all kinds of hot sex compared to what we looked like 3 years ago. (: So the adult world of promiscuity... here we come.


Our beauty brings tears to my eyes.

I think I should list writing children books as one of my fallback career options, alongside being a Tarot-card reader and a toygirl to some hot old dude.

i am such a fucking genius

I stated my GPA wrongly in my NUS application. I wrote that I'm averaging a GPA of 2.5, instead of 2.92 (which I just calculated) becuase my maths is just so fucking bad. I'm never gg to get into uni.

light up, light up

As hard as it is to believe, today I had my last class. And I handed in my last project.

Does anyone remember our first? In my head, I seem to believe that it was a writcomm assignment. We had to answer some questions or some thing like that.

And look at how far we've come (:

For one, I know that the poly years has made everyone become very much more matured. And in the finding of one's maturity, one learns more about oneself. Here's a few examples:

1. I hate elitist people.
2. I hate stupid people who are not hardworking. Cause if they're hardworking, they're at least doing their work. You can't pe someone down for being stupid.
3. I hate a certain someone and everytime I look at that certain someone I think about how ugly that person is. But no, I don't hate the person because of the way the person looks, its much deeper then that.
4. I hate working my ass off and then not getting an A - and we all know how often that happens. It sucks sometimes having such good lecturers, they have such high expectations.
5. I hate people who talk alot and do shit. Just shut the fuck up and do some work already.

So yeah, that's the tip of the iceberg. I've basically learnt how to hate. I used to think that using the word hate was terrible. Like only the worstesterestesticles of my enemies deserved to be hated. I hate more liberally now - I love more liberally too.

I guess I've just become more passionate. You know how they always say that people who are passionate are unpredictable and have rather extreme moodswings - well I haven't gotten there yet. But if I spend enough time in the media industry, I'm sure I will.

I've also become much more real. The plastic, people pleasing person I once was has somehow disappeared.

Oh and I also hate people who blog about every single fucking thing that they did in the day. Its a blog, its not a log of the way that little Mei Ling spent her day. People like that should be zapped off the blogosphere.

To think I might not see those eyes,
makes it so hard not to cry,
and as we say our long goodbyes,
I nearly do.